Im rather UnHuman I Must Say.

   sometimes you may see me happy and im mad as hell, and  sometimes you see me mad and im happy. whats understood dont got to bee explained, so im misunderstood should i explain?? people dont get " why her name is Micole" why cant it be Nicole. Well why she dont ever match and why her voice is do not normal. I heard why she has a mark on her face or how do she get along with everyone. They say things like why shes such a blonde and dont get things but she get good grades. Why do she have boy problems, is she self concious? for 9 months she gave Michelle pain, but now shes not even close to her. She wear hearts on her rings but dont seem to have one inside of her. Why she still have braces, why dont she like to be around others, why do she have 3rd persons perspective when we ask HER a question.Why is she quiet she you ask her a question or is there really a boy name polo she was really in a relationship??do she like boys and then when they get to close to her why do she want them to fall back?Them magazines that she make are for what:? Shes so skinny she dont even have no belly fat: THAT WHY SHE ALWAYS COLD!. lol, what( to everything she says). why would she take her glasses off when she didnt have no eyes where she come with these off ideas and questions that dont make sense?MY RESPONSE,they rather speculate before then really check : They never informate but always seem to just look at the pages before reading! thats wrong with these I WISH I COULD TELL YOU THE WAY I REALLY AM. iF I KNEW YOU WOULD KNOW; jUS KNOW THAT NORMAL PEOPLE RARLY MAKES HISTORYuneducated humans. i noticed you can be so close to me but yet so far from me. you could be my roomate and have no clue but yet lend opinions.hmmmmm with that being said :

The way i live nexx door to these people isnt the i live nexx door to these people. yu still dont understand?

Let me tell you you to bee specifc. someone may be the type to commit a fallacy or distribute a certain property because they want ABC or do it because people think of them as 123. I am the type to not think and do JUST to see the outcome of ABC, infer and to think how 234 person would do it too. `

, i DONT FAULT YOU, BUT F' U!. : no need to show a mad expression on ignorance, that makes it revernt.

VERA I HAVE YOUR WANG!. i love my grandmother Beatrice Henson, I am going to keep it straight like this; im in a state of transition, a well being for life and appreciation of my prettifulness. igive all respect to my grandma's for giving me life and a dedication of graditude to the both. im nothing without them.they worked harder then my mom and dad put together. Ms.Henson/Ms.Barnes made me who i am today. Micole Princess Henson-Barnes, Big Ups!.

Daphnie guniness: i can see me being her simply because she's hot.lol,In the mid-1980s, she lived in New York City with her sister Catherine Guinness, who was a companion of Andy Warhol. She married Spyros Niarchos, son of the Greek shipping billionaire Stavros Niarchos, in 1987 at the age of 19, but divorced in 1999 with a reported settlement of about 20 millions!!! ( woooowww) She
Guinness is prominent in the fashion world as a style icon, and journalist...
YOU HEAR ME JOURNALIST!

I was surprise to see her in these heels! i adore these heels and i would wear them to sleep in.The concept is to walk steady and fwd. I think that her as a 40 year older.

“Clothes don’t make a man, but clothes have got many a man a good job.”
- Herbert Harold Vreeland

July. I’m in Maui on a shoot with David LaChapelle. We’ve been shooting for 10 days straight. Sometimes twenty hour shoots in a day, from the deepest jungle to the volcanic cliffs, moving sets and equipment constantly. Working directly with the elements, the downpours, changing height and distances and moving the equipment has all been a challenge. The results are completely remarkable.

Causignac Marion

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This is where my my visions come from and my expectations to be able to dress on a whole different level. I preserve the million dollar shirts for the billion dollar freaks but i am aware of  special designs that are more ideal to my buget as a college student. I care more about my facial features than pricefull measures.

The Things You Say and The lessons You Learn

in life you have friends, heartbreaks, bestfriends, girlfriends/boyfriends, associates and if you lucky yu find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with which involves love. the life story of me wouldnt have no point if my sister didnt come in. There is noone I repeat noone that knows about my life as much as she does. We had times where we go back and forth telling each other secrets to see who would have the last words or having the last laughs. I never cryed so much to another than her. Shes like a structure in my bones to keep me walkin on the runway in front of everyone. She did more than me in so many ways and i did so much than her in so many different way so there no competence. We both are heading fwrd in life and she next to me holding my hand.

it started off when we met. Nothing kept us apart. Whenever i got in trouble my mom would always call her or knew she had something to do with it or when she would come up missing her dad would always hit me because i was never a good lier. I couldnt see me with out you Bae. so glad that we found each other; Im so happppyy babbbbyyy... it amazing how yu knock me off my feet. you know what makes me cry jus to be able to make me smile. Even though we act terrible to each other with the name callin and hitting and fighing and joaning, it all out of love and its how me show support for one another. learning that you dont need all teh friends in the world isnt nothing without them being there for you.i leaned that in so many ways the hard way was first, at the end you was last to stand shaking your head but didnt had to say anything because i remember to this day that if you not there, there are little who would bee.

The more that we have been apart since we diverged to face college i miss her the most everyday. If i only had one person to be around it would be you. My bestfriends and friends are there as well and not saying that their on the side but the you being the  

longest, the strongest, the dearest, the crazziest, the most that can speak for me if i was deaf to see for me if i was blind or walk for me if i was disabled , it would bee you.

 I love you Bianca.

Exuse me Dearly, iDdoneLostMy Mind

im a sooo sooo sorry. srry srry srry!!!!! i never mentioned how i left my two idealest inspirartors of all time. i know i probably mentioned kesh kumari and Raquel Reed, BUT i forgot my infamous kelis and remy- Ma!.... theyy all connect besides knowing each other, i rememble myself by them. Remy Ma most def has my savage side. im a fuckin lady but yu could Neva Play Me! vand kelis relationship, style, image, is witthin me. If you know me everyone knows how i had kesh kumari hair,lol... and i did look like her. WELLLL since she has a haircut now and i do too we look alike still but yu can tell the difference frm noses. Raquel Reed and Kesh mind concept on fashion attire is the same as mines like mines. kesh room was once like mines before i moved to college because the room was lookin like a closet and raquel reel clost looks like a clown threw up in it, and guess what!!,lol...im guessing yu gettin the pic and SO what it may sound clingy!, you have to start frm somewere and why not remembe the best of the F' in Best.

TIP: Use Bumble and Bumble's Styling Lotion on hair as a base to make it more workable, so you can create both a sleek crown and a gravity-defying tail.

This Years Hairstyle, " The shockwave". When i settle down i will bee getting this rite here. My style isnt really neat anyway, i usually use to wear my ponytails wild before my hairciut anyway. This is the newest fashionist style, given to you by me, cited by t.vogue.

My newest fav haircut : the hottest froom under the sun, frm me to yu simply from a fashion Junkie : cited T.Vogue

Pass the legacy of natural hair along, play a song, no need to fit in or belong!

Say it loud : i have a bush and im black and still proud!

hhahaha. Suckas!

MY WILL FOR FURTHER NOTICE

this came to mind randomously!. pretty much all my ideas are so this is my most prized stuff that i want to give away since it came to mind. ( you dont let good ideas slip away).

uhhummm [clearing my throat]

- i would like to give all my fashion aspects to (quaneisha goodwin)neenee " MY


BESTFRIEND" well the ones that she want; which is probablyy all. even though tonika is my fashion partner she has more stuff than me and she dont even want all her stuff!.PS share wiff Woosa = )....i want my bestfriends to stay together forever. to not let any nonsence or even big issues to disjoint one another My bestfriends Neenee and David.
- to David Davis i want you to have the page from my magazine that talks about you. i could never have another bestfriend as you or neenee and that from the heart. since those words are from the heart take it as you having a piece of my heart. ( neenee gets her page to!)... read one of your songs for me. it always made me blush = )
- i want eric banken to have our red book that we wrote in together because all of our memories are in there and a letter of my appreciation is to him.



- to my loving sister ( Bianca Jones) i want you to have all my magazines that i made and i want you to keep them for me. all my thoughts, actions, dreams, and memories are within those books. the letters that i wrote to certain people give it to them. otherwise they wouldnt had got them from me!,lol.... also my diary(burn them; I know you would read them first,lol)
- to my main family( mikey, maurice, mommy, daddy, grandma, and zeuce) i would like them to have smiles!. not one tear of sorrow.) if i was to die young and am hoping my fingers to not to. the most thing i can think of is burry me nexx to my favored boyfriend and dressed in pretty pink.I would like that. not no traditional ceremony either. i dont want not one person crying, or mad with grief. i want the biggest celebration Ever!

- to my fashion partner tonika. It maybe hard but i want tonika to read a poem for me. i like the inner thinkings of her. one of a kind.





i know know where to go with this or what part of time this will be done but to ensure that my dogg will get taken care of i would want my brothers to take care of zeuce if my daddy was to be sent away to. I know my mom would want it but i would feel comfortable wiff him around some men so he can become one. ( I baby him up alot).
- to myMom, GrandMa, and daddy! i really dont know what to give that can be worth my touch and voice everymorning, and i know i dont have any money to inherit from my pockets but i can say this!. i tried my best as Micole Barnes and i hope that i made you proud because i was a proud person to have all of you as parents. If what they say is true about when i go to heaven as a angel i will be looking over everyone. I will bee visualizing the most strongest family ever.
love to all the rest of my family. i love you as well. my grandma on my fathers side, my cousins, aunts, uncles, and everyone who shapened me.
- to phs and ejhs, everyone good and bad that where in a cloud in my life. i wannt to thank them. the good one made a smile and the bad ones made me strnger. the friends that didnt end up at the finsh line with me as a friend or close one; i can say this if i was really close to you and at the end we wasnt friends you pierced a crack on my heart because let me tell show yu this. I think i am a very generous person because the simple fact i take shit and i put up with alot of things. i bless your heart and getting my attention in the first place, it was some type of intrest there in my eyes so its probably there somewhere inside. I hope you find it. I love teh very few as well.
to everyone else that i didnt write on , its probably in my magazines because i talks about everybody!(not badd either!). my trust my sister out of anyone because she is the most person that understands me as a whole

the thrifty me in dDisguise!!

REAlly!, i get it from my daddy. he have his own mini business of technology solutions; DataBarn to be exact and he works at howard university also. my dad is my biggest image of real as it gets. he has done did everything and this is me guessing but knowing at the same time. 1. had me and didnt even like my mommy; took care of his responsibility and my moms to 2 .No college education; but knows just as much and his financial income is more that a college graduate by his experience to life 3. use to wash cars and be homeless in his young years 4. all of the above. MY DADDY!. the best that did it, and the best that ever will got dammit! anywho talking about him brings about my idea of thriftiness. i had everything i ever wanted being my daddy little angel ( and only child) i had a doggy at the age of 4 who was my bff and my favorite student playing teacher in my room. with a snap of my fingers i had it in my hand. spoiled little me i suppose. but as i grew older i realized my daddy business was so well organized and well planned out because the the biggest secret known to madkind THRIFTiNESS.







i betcha if you ask any wealthy person how they start out and if they was inherited by money, someway down the road its because they was thrifty.This came to mind while my dad would go to thrift stores to find chargers for laptops or laptop bags or something beneficail to his business,Boyy did he get $$$$ for jus paying cents out his pocket at yardsells or bagain shopping.I turned his example from his business into a fashion statement. Im sure im not the only one but i am the ostentatious one! you would think i shop at the malls and expensive stores ghetto girls waste their moms ebt cards on like susan fashion, or such. nope NOT ME!. the true fashion is within and i betcha if you look to your left and right look deep in the cracks you will find the most galmorous carnigans, the eccenticest jewelry and the hossest earings!. going to the markets and underground chinese outlets will give you all the discounts, dont get me wrong you cant shop for your undies and sockies there but i guarentee you wiff you look, search, hunt or whatnot i bet your bottom dollar yu could even find m. Jacobs or Chanel.whoo loawd,CHECK MATE!

Cant Help to Wonder

they said yu not suppose stay in the past because yu will never be focused on the future but i think I cant seem to wonder. wonder; to speculate curiously or be curious about; be curious to know. i love the life i live and live the life i love but retrospecting is a addiction. i pitcure me back with my REAL friends up howard university upward bound, walking to the playground and gossiping, or jus on the phone talking about what girls aways talk about; BOYS and RELATIONSHIPS. i picture myself striving up the hill when i had a half a day Potomac wiff my walking partner zo, jus to go to sleep and eat good at home.the most part i keep back tracking to the days of being happy. I mean really happy, when the olny time i would cry was when i was on my period. I have so many wishes now that Santa wouldnt even wanna listen to! wishing that i was a different person in my past relationships, From someone to me that is really noone really to me (if you get what im saying) told me that i was obsessed with a dead person because he died. saying " hes dead, hes not coming back"Everyone who is everyone said that hes crazzy because we were in love and we was in a realationship and it was still a close one when he left, BUT as i keep thinkn on what he said, ( other than the fact that he was jealous because i didnt show him no attention) it came to my attention that im not obsessed but i am held back in a certain position because at time i am sleepless, restless and i cry jus of the memories that is repeatly in my head of him. Him.if you dont know who him is by now you have no exsistance to bee a supporter of my blog. i can write a book,i can give yu a feeling that you never felt in your soul describing him. At times i think its a big concern because i think if i was there i would of got in front of him. if i would of took him with me that weeknd. It wouldnt had been him. i feel this because there is noone on this earth for me, as hard as it is to believe i am positive! i feel hearltless when i talk to people, I literally dont give a fuck to be honest!. some people say i am wierd because i start off liking them but it always diverges, so now i dont bother to get into any of nonsense they call love .i cant help to wonder from the past. i want to continue with the real world and move forward but my mind backtracks. Yes day to day i interact with this world and maintain efficeny but i know deep deep down inside whats really up. i dont know what to do. as i think of it now my mom thought i was going to his gravesite a little to much because its by her house. am i insane??. i cant help to wonder will i be lonly in this life on earth. god.Please I Hope Not

The pic of the day; rainy days put your mind into effect

Vogue's Fall Report 2009

" The Best,Of The Best Of The Best! "

FEMALE MUTULATION : Sexuality

The practice of female circumcise is a method to stitch up a woman's vagina protect them from sex until marriage. It has been traditionally used and in the process of ban still in Uganda. NO ANESTHETIC! So she would feel every slice and poke. Some died, but mothers are proud to take their daughters hands and walk threw the welcome door mat to get seen by the doctors. During the practice the health issues host external female genitals that is partially/totally removed and creates scar tissue that can cause complications during labor, which will prolong bleed. Socially it’s used throughout Uganda and between 1-140 million woman and girls has been circumcised

complications and physcial problems are known such as - The highest maternal and infant mortality rates are in FGM-practicing regions.The actual number of girls who die as a result of FGM is not known. However, in areas in the Sudan where antibiotics are not available, it is estimated that one-third of the girls undergoing FGM will die.Conservative estimates suggest that more than one million women in Centrafrican Republic (CAR), Egypt, and Eritrea, the only countries where such data is available, experienced adverse health effects from FGM.One quarter of women in CAR and 1/5 of women in Eritrea reported FGM-related complications. Where medical facilities are ill-equipped, emergencies arising from the practice cannot be treated. Thus, a child who develops uncontrolled bleeding or infection after FGM may die within hours.
Intense pain and/or hemorrhage that can lead to shock during and after the procedure. A 1985 Sierra Leone study found that nearly 97 percent of the 269 women interviewed experienced intense pain during and after FGM, and more than 13 percent went into shock. Hemorrhage can also lead to anemia.
Wound infection, including tetanus. A survey in a clinic outside of Freetown (Sierra Leone) showed that of 100 girls who had FGM, 1 died and 12 required hospitalization. Of the 12 hospitalized, 10 suffered from bleeding and 5 from tetanus.24 Tetanus is fatal in 50 to 60 percent of all cases.25
Damage to adjoining organs from the use of blunt instruments by unskilled operators.
Urine retention from swelling and/or blockage of the urethra.

it is know that most mothers who had it done to them is more than likly to do it to their daughter(s)and Men help continue the practice by refusing to marry women who have not had FGM or by allowing or paying for their daughters' procedures.








Still think you mom Mean Business??

My affirmination to take stand as a Journalist(in Training)

By young adults having no firm code of disciplinary especially in CO-ED dorms, it has caused a collegiate to at accordingly. College students have a little culture within the bounds of campus that often practice sex before marriage. Spiritually its in no one's religion but mind stated is used as if "It delays the ceremony’s will be before marriage. (Un) A health issue involves out - of- wedlock pregnancies, divorce, unhappy homes, venereal diseases, ending of education and careers and i can go on for days! College students are one of the most intelligent, better provided material, and opportunity seekers of his generation but one minor mistake will do major damage by being conned into slippery relationships by "she's nice looking”. Emotional and socially a perspective student may have strong firm morals but is quiet because of being laughed or ignored psychologically or subsequently. Even thought its to tough to dig into the roots of the problem, the area lies not from home, church, or college itself, but the person that has the concept of respecting his/her new meaning to vility to moral strive. We don’t have to look far away in mileage such as Africa to be able to correspond a cultural practice that is unhealthy used when we can sense it locally.

Speak The Truth & Nothing OF It ; I Say!

she's Crazy, she's Cool. She dominate this School!. wow college is nothing but the truth!im sure someone is on my boat. having the morning classes, the sad face
when you see the lunch menu and end up eating pizza everyday subsequently.living in co-ed dorms and TRYNNA look pretty in pj's,lmao.this experience is different for me. its not high school or UPWARD BOUND. your prolonged friends are you enemies and i am unable to make fashion statments while being late for class 8 in the mornin after after going to sleep 3 in the A.M. (ERRRRRR) freshmen seminars arethe worst and the prettiest boy on campus looks like your EX!,hahaha.Still wishing i had someone to talk to or texx 4 in the morning to make it all worth while,or a special dog i had since 4 to fill a void but fortunally my baby is in paradise. THE BOTH OF THEM. college is??? college is???? nothing i expect. classes are a handful, but i wuldnt give my schedule up for the world.Modelingn practice is nice, and the suite mates are the best!. 605b, we the top Models!. idk what im looking for per sayy, its just something missin and its damn sure aint them track parties. (them boys are nasty; I promise)Cold in the summa time on campus? {X} cleaning the room 5 min before inspection {X} and havin a party 1 st week on campus {X}....sumthing still missing???.... im bound to find out

My Desire Shall not be nor more than my Claim

one of my most infamous inspirators; Marylin Monroe.The thought of a beautiful, prolific,indiviual besides myself that is known to walk this earth to not want fame but greatness


"I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not because I was talented or even beautiful, but because I had never belonged to anything or anyone else."

beauty is madness

I am on this Journey,planning to strive for reality. I am not a superhuman so when the one who I thought knew stabbs me in the back, all i did was bleed.No one never gave me a napkin or ask did i need help ,so I jus set there wif Apprehension.Sometimes I am Lonley, so I cry. when i cry there is this sound that the wind makes;but only if the wind is cold.Like on a day where the sun moves behind a cloud while the devil beats his wife.Others times but not to often I have a image that runs in the back of my head about the 1st day I met my bestfriend or the 1st time where I made the honor roll and my daddy was proud.The cries slow me down ,but I can feel my destination.On this Journey I ask mysellf " Am I alive"?
because my body never feels weak, but my feet does move Ive been blind since the day I lost my Virginity but I kno my heart failed so many miles back because the fact that I neva culd keep up in this game.Hunger constantly tells me to eat, but I challenge mysellf and I lost so much and I stumbled over so many rocks but the rocks made me mature;I fell for so many whethers but it made me wiser and all the paths I could have taken, lead me to who I became, And I Am Only her.Micole.