Monday, July 27, 2009

beauty is madness

I am on this Journey,planning to strive for reality. I am not a superhuman so when the one who I thought knew stabbs me in the back, all i did was bleed.No one never gave me a napkin or ask did i need help ,so I jus set there wif Apprehension.Sometimes I am Lonley, so I cry. when i cry there is this sound that the wind makes;but only if the wind is cold.Like on a day where the sun moves behind a cloud while the devil beats his wife.Others times but not to often I have a image that runs in the back of my head about the 1st day I met my bestfriend or the 1st time where I made the honor roll and my daddy was proud.The cries slow me down ,but I can feel my destination.On this Journey I ask mysellf " Am I alive"?
because my body never feels weak, but my feet does move Ive been blind since the day I lost my Virginity but I kno my heart failed so many miles back because the fact that I neva culd keep up in this game.Hunger constantly tells me to eat, but I challenge mysellf and I lost so much and I stumbled over so many rocks but the rocks made me mature;I fell for so many whethers but it made me wiser and all the paths I could have taken, lead me to who I became, And I Am Only her.Micole.

My First 18+ Club at Myrtle Beach

FlashBack to my first Year Of HighSchool

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Call me Barbie Cause Im Fake!.

dayummmm! this weekend has been so depleteing and miserable. According to the law of attraction I brought that mess in my life. A misunderstanding between my closest frienns and "my use to bee boyfrienn" that i will never claim even if he was a alien and neededa wife and a greencard!,Plus his frienns the the fatt joints, the 26 year older that cooled it wiff 17 year olders and the one who works at iverson picking up trash as his job(wink-Wink) Sheeesh!, send me to rehab and call it a day!. The last straw was when Gerrell said i was fake(Todayy)and hes's real and for me to quote unquote " Halla Back". put me in a mini dress and in a doll house and im done!.(By the way i wrote him saying HI. I cant believe that someone wuld think that i am fake. I never kept all my feelings inside. I never been off and on wiff a person unless that was acting shady first!,i even kept it a FUCKING 100 in my post below. boys will bee boys and the attraction will be the attraction. So for now on i will relate to this secret, law of attraction thinie ma-Jiggy and keep it as "a affirmative action is 100 time powerful 1 billion negetive actions.". college and a beeday cumming up in August who to say i need to worry about a single male low minded human to think of me in such away.I AM INDEED APPLAUDED!. my frienns will stay true if they ever were. Coppin State University Here I come wiff The law of attraction!(p.s Dont now what the law of attraction is tune in on nik's Bloglisted below.
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It's been to long and Im lost without you

My dearest sweet Polo. The problem is people say you gone, i know yu didnt leeve.the definition of leaving is no returning,so i will never see you again.Who lied to them? You are so close but yet so far away.see yu later is the more like it.I miss you. Im lost without you but i can even maintain really. Its a big disguise. How i walk around and tell people the story about you when they ask,like it dont eat me up inside. i wanna let you know that i love you. The last thing i said to you about that i was saying how"i care about you" and you said you believed me when really we was suppose to be saying fuck each other. I have a problem of accepting the fact that your not on earth.Imma leeve it as we went without seeing each other for a while and telling myself that you said you was gonna try to get a ride(like you always said when it rained).Im kinda happy i didnt find that picha of us that we took cause i would die. imma bee some insane freak that would try to do some voo-doo mess trynna bring you back.(Jus kidding). I couldnt accept the fact that every other girl wanted you but i can say that i accept that god wanted you. i know your safe from Drama. ( from mee to,cause i did cause some). lls. boo you got me sitting here crying and smiling. smiling cause i can be able to say you where in my world. crying cause i got this "i miss you" song by aaliyah on repeat. In a special most respected way. I am your keeper and i love you wiff all my heart. You and Deuce!.i cant even stop writting jus like i couldnt leeve your gravesite or when you spent the nite or i spent the nite. I cant leeve you . i would let a snake bit me, i would give away all my clothes and bee homeless,my would travel back in the slave years and live,i would not eat for a 100 days,JUST TO BEE WITH YOU AND TALK TO YOU FOR A DAY. imagine what i would do jus to have you back forever!.i wanted to say all this when i was feeling it. The rite moment. Its jus been to long and i need you. When i spent the day at the gravesite and sat and jus stared. I was speechless. Imma keep that promise i raising money for your grave plot.Polo The Star, i truly am fucked up. my hands are shaking and i cant even write nomore = (. love you.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Educating my mind As A Journalist

LONDON – Only death could silence Henry Allingham.Allingham, who was the world's oldest man when he died Saturday at 113, attributed his remarkable longevity to "cigarettes, whisky and wild, wild women."

Jokes aside, he was a modest man who served as Britain's conscience, reminding young people time and time again about the true cost of war.

"I want everyone to know," he told The Associated Press during an interview in November. "They died for us."

He was the last surviving original member of the Royal Air Force, which was formed in 1918. He made it a personal crusade to talk about a conflict that wiped out much of a generation. Though nearly blind, he would take the outstretched hands of visitors in both of his, gaze into the eyes of children, veterans and journalists and deliver a message he wanted them all to remember about those left on the battlefield.

"I don't want to see them forgotten," he would say quietly. "We were pals."

Only a handful of World War I veterans remain of the estimated 68 million mobilized. There are no French veterans left alive; just one left now in Britain; and the last living American-born veteran is Frank Woodruff Buckles of Charles Town, West Virginia. The man believed to have been Germany's last surviving soldier has also died.File - Britain's oldest man Henry Allingham aged 112 and the last British serviceman alive to have volunteered for active duty in the First World War, holds a copy of his book at a launch in London, in this Sept.23, 2008 file photo. St Dunstan's care home in Ovingdean, near Brighton on England's south coast, says Allingham died early Saturday July 18, 2009. He was one of only two surviving World War I veterans in Britain and had been the world's oldest man since June 19. He was 113.Allingham remained outspoken until his death, pleading for peace and begging anyone who would listen to remember those who died.

"I think we need to make people aware that a few men gave all they had to give so that you could have a better world to live in," he said. "We have to pray it never happens again."

Goodwin said Allingham's funeral will take place in Brighton. He is survived by five grandchildren, 12 great-grandchildren, 14 great-great grandchildren and one great-great-great grandchild.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

A heart that still Beats

Dear Someone
To someone that was my friend for a least 3 years. To someone that somehow we stopped talking, to someone that would know the same thing i was thinking when a girl would walk past wiff a unimaginitave outfit on. To someone that would talk allnite and laugh till the sun come up about nuffin. to someone that shared rooms wiff me over the summer. to someone that would walk up and down the street wiff me round trinidad jus to go to the store,and yes someone who would play on the phone wiff me 3 oclock in the morning then wake up at 7 to go to class,My frienn I still Call Tonika =]

I must Confess Im Still I love With My Ex [X]

I dont know what to say or how it go But My ex still runs threw my mind. It feels like he dont even like me 99% but the 0.1% continues for me to think that its still a chance,lls. I force myself to take the energy off of his name but when his name comes up all the memories evolves. hes like my rose in between the concrete ground or the storm in a 100 year drought. The name will never or shall come out my Mouth, but beautiful brownskinned dreadhead wiff the distinctive laugh is the continuence of my post. You will never get the letter i wrote you and the print of my lips on the letter from the red lipstick that indeed brought out some tears. The door is shut on this relationship war and farewll Gerrell, My ex that i jus now confessed

The Fact Of NEVER Knowing


You never know when someone
might catch a dream from you.

Or something you say may open up the windows
of a mind that seeks light;

The way you live may not matter at all,
But you never know, it might.

And just in case it could be
that another's life, through you,

might possibly change for the better
with a better and brighter view,

it seems it might be worth a try
at pointing the way to the right;

Of course, it may not matter at all,
but then again, it might.

~~ Author Unknown ~~

Where Have Ive Been All My Life?

Props To Raqueal Reed,trya & Friends, Kesh,Elena, and Manuel Frm Teen Vogue , and the clown frm outback steakhouse =]

Art In My Eyes : Micole Was Here

Dying to Get to Europe

Sub-Saharan Africans are literally dying to get to Europe. The Moroccan police pulled one young man off a train as he was trying to escape. He fell under the train and lost both his legs. Where is he going to go? He says “I am a small man now please help me” Will he go back to his country to beg on the streets? What kind of life lies ahead for him?Off the coast of the tourist island of Fuerteventura in the Canaries every year people drown in the flimsy disposable boats which come across the 100km which separate the Canaries from the Western Sahara (controlled by Morocco.) Most of them arrive cold, wet and hungry. Some have hypothermia others are lost at sea. How can you tell a woman that her husband and young baby have just drowned when the boat smashed against the rocks? Didn't the people now in graves marked as “illegal immigrant number 26” have the right to a better life?

Spead Your Wings And Fly Away

I never though I seed The day that You Leff me. I remember Day One When I first got you at the age of 4 I shared my icecream wiff you in the car and you was my light of sunshine. I cried to you about my relationships and you would jus look at me and i knew point on that if i had you, whatever thing that would go wrong you would seek it out wiff me( Better than some fish!). I remember when i was little in school and we had to put the name of our bestfriend down on paper and I would Proudly put Deuce!. You was Jus like Me. Different!. Only dog wiff a purple tongue, and no other dog looked like you. i would be cursing everyone out when they talked about you saying negetive things because you wasnt the typical dog.You wasnt no regular dog you was my hommie, my roll dogg and you most definitly kept all my late night secrets,lls. I can careless how people reacted or what anyone thought of you because through thick and thin you was always there tapping across the kitchen table because your claws was always long.You even accepted another family member to our house hold when i brought Zeuce home . He had alot of more attention and liked to boss you around, but anywhow you was the only one that put a smile on my face and didnt have to say anything. You would always come meet me any time of the day when i got home at the door and now i dont what to say. the void that's in my heart and shows on my face when i see your red collar and leesh laying here and will never be used again, the way christmas will Comes around and i will have to erase your name off the list, and no one on the couch sleep when i come home . Boyyyyy! you dont know what you do to me and it kills me to know that you not in my world and will never bee again. 14 Years Strong!, you was like clifford the big red dog. I swear i would give anything to have you back and i pray that you remember me always. I know you did when me and my dad had you in the dog place the appt didnt allow dogs but i came to see you every week because you was my biscuit head!....I love you Deuce R.I.P my bisuit head doggie.

30 DaysOf Mascara and Counting

Mistaken Identity

- Queen Bee/Boushy && Beyond
X I like To sleep Alot ( Im No Pregno)
X I am a braceface
X I am a Supporter of dreadheads/Waveheads
X Obama Cheated(Jus Kidding)
X I would walk Outside Naked if it wasnt illegal
X I secrectly wear my dad clothing
X Me and my grandma plays HIDE & SEEk,lls
X I dont handshake or " Dapp Upp"Unless its for a interview
X My room is a closet
X I brainwashed My Dog Zeuce to Cookies Frm The cookie jar Before Dinner
X I wish i could had Cheated On the SAT/ACT
X I wanna bee like kesh When I grow Up(except the car accident theory)
X I prefer A Double Staker Burger & Milkshake rather than Salad
X I believe that Seafood Makes Female Babies Come out Stinky
X Christ is my Savior
X I Ride in UnMarked Cars
X Girls Jus wanna Have Fun( without catching Diseases)
X P.S Im No HoodRat SkyRoller =]